letters unaddressed

you say i look better than ever

you say nothing lasts forever

but when i say i love you

you say you love me too

and your kisses feel like downhills on a bike

but i know i’ll have to ride up again

with the feeling of you still lingering between my legs

an the salt from your skin

is still here

growing from within

as you look at me

and kiss my cheek

and say thanks for understanding

and then never turn around

but as the world came crashing down

i swear i looked back fifty times

to see if i could catch your eye

and every fucking fence

outlines last years regrets

and how i let you go

and yeah i pushed through the snow

in more ways than one

i learned to have fun

without having you around

and i didn’t make a sound

when they said your name

i just laughed and played the game

but when you said mine

i stumbled forward bkind

and fell into the deep sea of your eyes

and you swallowed me whole

in that pit dark and od

and i shook from your touch

and i felt the rush

of you and me

making the sheets a darker shade of green

and the way we kissed so sweet

but then you stood up

and walked across that hall

the way you did last fall

but nothing like that at all

because the kitchen got dark and i felt the part

where i get really shy

and i start to hate you but i don’t cry

and that walk was long

as you strung me along

pretending everything was fine

yeah we’ll be alright

because nothings “we” tonight

and i unlocked my bike

we walked one more block

my feet dragging in my socks

and you kissed me on the forehead

you kissed me on the neck

i said i loved you

and you said you loved me too

and then said “thankyou for understanding”

as you kissed me on the cheek

and walked away from me